Too often, I compare myself to others. I judge my accomplishments, my house, my needs against the backdrop of some other life. It is infinitely frustrating and I really don't understand it. My home is my sanctuary, my family a dream come true! We've built this life together, over many years, with hard work and sacrifice. Things have not come easily for us, and I am so very proud of where we are today. So why, then, does it matter if my nursery is better than someone else's? Why do I care if they have a bigger house? I have never given a single hoot about what other people thought of me, so why now? I wrestle with these questions every time I hear about some else's good fortune, every time I open Facebook and see yet another status message that seems targeted right at my fragile psyche (in my perception only, of course.) It is tiring and I am done. Once and for all, I must squelch the root of it all:
Hello, my name is Amanda, and I am Insecure.
This is a delicate part of myself that I am wary of sharing. This is not a cry for compliments or reinforcement. I guess I just need to say it 'out loud.' So there, I said it. From this point forward I shall try to focus on my own standards, not the lives of others. Thank you for listening. :)
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ReplyDeleteHello, my name is Peggy, and I, too, am insecure.
At the same time, I, like you, am confident, capable, and accomplished in many ways. Thank goodness insecurity does not need to hold us back, especially true when we acknowledge its existence - which in itself is courageous!
I think we all are a little insecure, I'm probably more than I'd care to admit. Hey it's probably why we all have blogs! But like Tizbee said it's fine so long as it doesn't hold you back.
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